I was always disconnected with my country’s culture. Partly because I grew up somewhere else (with a similar culture) but mostly because I didn’t leave the house much and spent a lot of time on the English-speaking internet.

But I don’t really see it as a bad thing. I try not to tie my identity to where I was born or what piece of paper I was given. I don’t like nationalism. I am a human. That’s what matters most. Humans are the same everywhere. Of course it’s natural for humans to be tribal but I think we should overcome that.

Really my culture is a mix of cultures. I still cook my country’s meals. I kept a lot of habits I’m used to. The language is still there, it’s just weaker. If I ever feel like it I may revive it someday. But to me that’s more boring compared to learning a new and exciting foreign language I’ve had no contact with.

Why do you think it’s sad?

Yeah fr.

I just don’t see any need to improve my native language. I don’t need it irl, and I find it pretty boring. Unlike other foreign languages I might learn for fun.

I used to code switch in my inner monologue. Now it’s mostly English. I pretty much only speak my native language with my parents.

The other day I ran into some distant relatives at a new years celebration and one of them remarked that my language was rusty and pronunciation is weird…idk about pronunciation. I don’t agree there. But my active vocab in native language is pretty diminished.

Wait until your inner monologue is in English